第三部分 “如果我没有好转,你会把我赶走吗?”

期望落空,总在众望所归之处;

期望常现,总在心灰意懒之时。[1]

——威廉·莎士比亚,《终成眷属》

我曾看到自己的伟大时刻星光闪耀,

我曾看到熟悉的侍者接过外套窃笑,

总之,我感觉有些害怕。[2]

——T.S.艾略特

当然,您说得非常正确。除非我们能够取得进展,否则就不应该向总统申请更多的经费。[3]

——国家癌症计划负责人弗兰克·劳舍尔(Frank Rauscher)

对玛丽·拉斯克的答复,1974年

[1] Oft expectation fails: William Shakespeare, All’s Well That Ends Well (New York: Macmillan, 1912), act 2, scene 1, lines 145–47, p. 34.

[2] I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker: T. S. Eliot, “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock,” lines 84–86, The Norton Anthology of Poetry, 4th ed. (New York: Norton, 1996), 1232.

[3] You are absolutely correct: Frank Rauscher, letter to Mary Lasker, March 18, 1974, Mary Lasker Papers, Box 118.